Posts tagged ‘disillusion’
phobia
Everyday, I fight the forces of decay and ruin. I get up each morning, brush my teeth, put on clean clothes and slowly watch it all fall apart. Then I do it again the next day. There’s point here somewhere.
Stand by, it’s coming to me.
the power of negative thinking
The Anitidote, by Oliver Burkeman, proposes that living with uncertainty will make you happier than positive thinking. I’ve been living with uncertainty for over 5 years (actually my whole life but that’s another blog) and I’m not sure if I agree about the happier part but it is a more realistic way to navigate our current crazy economy.
I saw this trailer on my favorite blog, Brain Pickings. Blogger Maria Popover has an omnivorous curiosity for all things science and art. I highly recommend signing up for her newsletters. It’s like Christmas (or Hanukkah?) for the mind every Sunday morning.
no and no
I know this image reads as a bit of a downer but it needed to come out. The voice in my head that constantly judges and undermines my best efforts is a sneaky little bugger. Countering this insistant voice requires actually recognizing what it is doing and then…well, hopefully it melts with awareness and I can just get on with doing what I need to do. So, no to no?
dis-location
My new home is familiar yet deeply different. Instead of squeezing myself into crowded subway cars, I squeeze my car into massive traffic jams. In NYC, I complained about no personal space. Out here, not letting someone into your lane is a way of claiming space. It’s car eat car.
Nice weather though.
map quest
I relocated to the other coast last week. My brother and I drove across the country, my car stuffed with stuff. That’s one heck of a drive. I thought I would document it but after 10hrs a day of staring at open highway, my mind was as flat as western Kansas.
I moved out here for various reasons – help my Dad, try something new (again), transform my identity (hopeless idea) – but it’s all a big mystery.
Just Tolkoff 